The Realistic Dreamer's Outlet

The last two days, my parents have been fixing up the house. They've been painting the walls neutral colors, rearranging furniture, packing things that we don't use on a daily basis into boxes, and even fixed our broken pourch step.

Because I really am moving out after graduation.

858 Kenny Road
Memphis, Michigan

This is so bizarre.
This is the summer leading into me going to college. I was hoping to spend it with friends, you know? I also kind of have a job here that I need. If I move, I have nothing out there. There aren't many opportunities to make friends between moving out there and moving out to college. There's also no where to get a job. I don't know how many of you have been to Memphis, but it's kind of Hicksville. I'm really rather bummed.

I want to be here.
What about on breaks? When I'm supposed to be home for the holidays in college?
The only home I'll be coming to is my mom and my dad in an unfamiliar house.
When I want to visit friends down here, I have to stay with them...
That feels so imposing and unfair to them.

I guess I'm okay with moving.
I kind of have to be.

But I'm going to miss everyone.
It's really starting to feel like I will never see you guys again.
And I love you so much.
And I don't want to lose you.

Will we stay in touch?
Can I still come and visit?

AHHH.
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!?!?