The Realistic Dreamer's Outlet

Last Thursday was Graduation Rehearsal, SVSU-meet at MCC, Prom, and Awards Night.
This was one of the busiest days I have ever had. But it was all so worth it. It was one of the best nights of my life.

Morning:
I woke up at 7am and threw on the dress Amber picked out for me at the Thrift Store, high tailing it to LHS for grad practice, where Lyndz and I proceeded to make fun of the whole thing. They made us stand up and sit back down a million times. After that was done, I ran around getting signatures and stood in giant lines for an hour. Then Lyndz and I went out to breakfast. :) I got a waffle and it was delicious. We shared some sausage. Some time in this time, Carrie set out to ruin my graduation. It worked, good for her. But lets not talk about how I cried for several hours on friday because of some mean words.

( Prom Details, read at your own discretion )

That's what I mean when I say "it was a really lovely evening."
At some point during the night, at LHS, my name was called into the auditorium...
awarding me the Lakeview Choral Award. :))
<3
AND MR SUPAL WAS TALKING.
UGH.
:((
I missed it.
Boo.
I LOVE YOU MR. SUPAL.

The last two days, my parents have been fixing up the house. They've been painting the walls neutral colors, rearranging furniture, packing things that we don't use on a daily basis into boxes, and even fixed our broken pourch step.

Because I really am moving out after graduation.

858 Kenny Road
Memphis, Michigan

This is so bizarre.
This is the summer leading into me going to college. I was hoping to spend it with friends, you know? I also kind of have a job here that I need. If I move, I have nothing out there. There aren't many opportunities to make friends between moving out there and moving out to college. There's also no where to get a job. I don't know how many of you have been to Memphis, but it's kind of Hicksville. I'm really rather bummed.

I want to be here.
What about on breaks? When I'm supposed to be home for the holidays in college?
The only home I'll be coming to is my mom and my dad in an unfamiliar house.
When I want to visit friends down here, I have to stay with them...
That feels so imposing and unfair to them.

I guess I'm okay with moving.
I kind of have to be.

But I'm going to miss everyone.
It's really starting to feel like I will never see you guys again.
And I love you so much.
And I don't want to lose you.

Will we stay in touch?
Can I still come and visit?

AHHH.
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!?!?